"This is not a yoga for the weak "
- The Mother
- The Mother
The Secret
We can try to say something of this Secret,
though keeping in mind that the experience is in progress. Sri Aurobindo
began; he found the Secret in Chandernagore in 1910 and worked on it
for forty years; he gave up his life to it. And so did Mother.
Sri Aurobindo has never told us the
circumstances of his discovery. He was always extraordinarily silent
about himself, not out of reserve but simply because the "I" did not
exist. "One felt," his Chandernagore host reports with naive surprise,
"one felt when he spoke as if somebody else were speaking through him. I
placed the plate of food before him, – he simply gazed at it, then ate a
little, just mechanically! He appeared to be inwardly absorbed even
when he was eating; he used to meditate with open eyes."218
It was only later, from his writings and some fragments of
conversations, that his experience could be pieced together. The first
clue came from a chance remark made to one of his disciples. It shows
that from Alipore onward he was on the trail: I was mentally subjected to all sorts of torture for fifteen days. I had to look upon pictures of all sorts of suffering.219
We must remember that in those worlds, seeing is synonymous with
experiencing. Thus, as Sri Aurobindo ascended toward the overmind, his
consciousness was descending into what we are used to calling hell.
This is also one of the first phenomena the seeker experiences, in varying degrees. This is not a yoga for the weak,
as the Mother says, and it is true. For if the first tangible result of
Sri Aurobindo's yoga is to bring out new poetic and artistic faculties,
the second, perhaps even the immediate consequence, is to shine a
merciless spotlight on all the undersides of the consciousness, first
individual, then universal. This close, and puzzling, linkage between
superconscient and subconscient was certainly the starting point of Sri
Aurobindo's breakthrough.
The Gradations of the Subconscient
The "subconscious" of modern psychology is only the outer fringe of a world almost as vast as the Superconscient, with many levels, forces, beings (or being-forces, if we prefer). It is our immediate as well as distant evolutionary past, with all the impressions of our present life and all those of our past lives, just as the Superconscient is our evolutionary future. All the residues and forces that have presided over our evolutionary ascent from inanimate matter to animal to man are not only stored there, but continue to live and to influence us. If indeed we are more divine than we think by virtue of the superconscious future that is drawing us ahead, we are also more beast-like than we imagine thanks to the subconscious and unconscious past we drag behind us. This double mystery holds the key to the total Secret. None can reach heaven who has not passed through hell.220
True, one can reach spiritual heavens without
even knowing these squalid places, except by accident. But there are
different kinds of heavens, just as there are different kinds of hells
(each level of our being has its own "heaven" and "hell"). Generally,
the religious man leaves behind the individual self, thereby leaving
behind the subconscient. He merely has to pass through one gate, with
"guardians" unpleasant enough to account for all the "nights" and
"temptations" mentioned in the lives of saints. But there is only one gate
to pass through. Similarly, the heaven he aspires to means leaving the
outer existence and plunging into ecstasy. As we have said, though, the
goal of this yoga is not to lose consciousness, any more below than
above, and in particular not to close our eyes to the conditions below.
The integral seeker is meant neither for total darkness nor for blinding
light. Everywhere he goes, he must see. This is the foremost condition
of mastery. Indeed, we do not seek to move on to a better existence but
to transform this one.
Just as there are several gradations in the
superconscient, there are also several layers or worlds in the
subconscient, several "dark caves," as the Rig Veda calls them. In fact,
there is a subconscient behind each level of our being – a mental
subconscient, a vital subconscient, and a physical subconscient, opening
onto the material Inconscient.221
There we will find, respectively, all the elementary and crude mental
forms or forces that first appeared in the world of Matter and Life; all
the aggressive impulses of the beginnings of Life, its reflexes of fear
and suffering; and finally the forces of illness and disintegration,
and Death, which subconsciously preside over our physical life. It
becomes obvious, therefore, that no real life on earth is possible so
long as all these worlds remain in control of our physical destiny. We
are ourselves the battlefield:
all these worlds, from the highest to the lowest, meet within us. So we
must not run away, holding our noses or crossing ourselves, but
squarely enter the battlefield and conquer:
He too must carry the yoke he came to unloose;
He too must bear the pang that he would heal...222
The Limits of Psychoanalysis
Contemporary psychology, too, has become aware
of the importance of the subconscient and of the need to cleanse it. But
psychologists have seen only half of the picture – the subconscient
without the superconscient – presuming, moreover, that their small
mental glimmers would be able to illuminate that den of thieves. They
might as well try to find their way through the darkest jungle armed
with a flashlight! In fact, in more cases they see the subconscient only
as the underside of the small frontal personality, for there is a
fundamental psychological law none can escape: descent is commensurate
with ascent. One cannot descend farther than one has ascended, because
the force necessary for descent is the very same force needed for
ascent. If, by accident, someone descended lower than his capacity for
ascent, this would immediately result in some serious accident,
possession or madness, because the corresponding power would be missing.
The closer we draw to a beginning of Truth down here, the more we
uncover an unfathomable wisdom. Mr. Smith's obscure inhibitions are
merely a few inches below the surface, we might say, just as his
conscious life is merely a few inches above. So unless our psychologists
are particularly enlightened, they cannot really go down into the
subconscient, and therefore cannot really heal anything, except for a
few superficial anomalies (and even then, there is constant risk of
seeing these disorders resurface elsewhere, in some other form). One
cannot heal unless one has gone all the way to the base, and one cannot
go all the way to the base unless one has risen to the heights. The farther one descends, the more powerful the light needed, otherwise one is simply eaten alive.
If psychoanalysis were content to remain within
its narrow limits, there would be nothing to fear; it would eventually
realize its own limitations, while fulfilling in the meantime a useful
social function by treating minor scratches. Unfortunately,
psychoanalysis has become for many a kind of new gospel. By its
insistent focus on all our murky possibilities rather than on our divine
ones, it has become a powerful instrument of mental corruption. No
doubt, in the course of evolution, our "blunders" eventually find their
place and purpose; our moral, middle-class self-righteousness certainly
had to be shaken, but the method chosen is a dangerous one because it
calls up the disease without having the corresponding power to cure it. It tends, says Sri Aurobindo, to make the mind and vital more and not less fundamentally impure than before....223
Modern psychology is an infant science, at once rash, fumbling and
crude. As in all infant sciences, the universal habit of the human mind –
to take a partial or local truth, generalize it unduly and try to
explain a whole field of Nature in its narrow terms – runs riot here....
The psychoanalysis [especially] of Freud... takes up a certain part,
the darkest, the most perilous, the unhealthiest part of the nature, the
lower vital subconscious layer,224
isolates some of its most morbid phenomena and attributes to it and
them an action out of all proportion to its true role in the nature....
To raise it up prematurely or improperly for experience is to risk
suffering the conscious parts also with its dark and dirty stuff and
thus poisoning the whole vital and even the mental nature. Always
therefore one should begin by a positive, not a negative experience, by
bringing down something of the divine
nature, calm, light, equanimity, purity, divine strength into the parts
of the conscious being that have to be changed; only when that has been
sufficiently done and there is a firm positive basis, is it safe to
raise up the concealed subconscious adverse elements in order to destroy
and eliminate them by the strength of the divine calm, light, force and
knowledge.225
There is another drawback to psychoanalysis, a
more serious one. If by chance psychoanalysts had the power to descend
into the subconscient, not only would they not heal anything, not only
would they risk setting in motion forces which, like the sorcerer's
apprentice, they could not control, but even if they did have the power
to master and to destroy these forces, they would very probably destroy
the good along with the evil, thus irreparably mutilating our nature.
For they do not possess knowledge. From their mental poise, they cannot
see far enough into the future to discern the good that a certain evil
may be preparing and the dynamic Force concealed behind the play of
opposites. Another kind of power is needed in order to sort out this
bizarre amalgam, and above all another vision: You must know the
whole before you can know the part and the highest before you can truly
understand the lowest. That is the promise of the greater psychology
awaiting its hour before which these poor gropings will disappear and
come to nothing.6
Here we touch upon the fundamental error of our
modern psychology: it fails to understand anything because it searches
below, in our evolutionary past. True, half the Secret may be there, but
we still need the force above to open the door below. We were never
meant to look behind, but ahead and above in the superconscious light,
because it is our future, and only the future can explain and heal the
past: I find it difficult, Sri Aurobindo wrote to a disciple, to
take these psychoanalysts at all seriously – yet perhaps one ought to,
for half-knowledge is a powerful thing and can be a great obstacle to
the coming in front of the true Truth.... They look from down up and
explain the higher lights by the lower obscurities; but the foundation
of these things is above and not below. The superconscient, not
the subconscient, is the true foundation of things. The significance of
the lotus is not to be found by analyzing the secrets of the mud from
which it grows here; its secret is to be found in the heavenly archetype
of the lotus that blooms for ever in the Light above.
We appear to progress from below upward, from
past to future, from night to conscious light, but this is just our
small momentary understanding that obscures the whole, for otherwise we
would see that it is not the past that impels us, but the future that
draws us and the light above that gradually pervades our darkness – for
how could darkness ever have created all that light? If we had been born
out of darkness, we would end up only in darkness. "This is the eternal
Tree with its roots above and its branches downward," says the Katha
Upanishad. (VI.I) We feel we are making great efforts to progress toward
more understanding and greater knowledge; we have a sense of tension
toward the future. But this is still our limited perspective. If we had a
different perspective, we might see the superconscious Future trying to
enter our present. And we would realize that our sense of effort is
just the resistance put up by our denseness and darkness. The future
does not move only from below upward, otherwise there would be no hope
for the earth, as it would end up exploding in the sky from a supreme
psychic tension, or falling back into darkness. The future moves also
from above downward; it penetrates deeper and deeper into our mental
fog, into our vital confusion, into the subconscious and unconscious
night, until it illuminates everything, reveals everything, heals
everything – and ultimately fulfills everything. Yet the deeper it goes,
the greater the resistance – for this is the Iron Age, the time of the
great Revolt and Peril – but also the time of Hope. At the supreme point
where this Future touches the rock-bottom past, where this Light bursts
into night's nethermost level, God willing, we will find the secret of
Death and of immortal Life. But if we look below and only below, we will
find mud and only mud.
The Dark Half of the Truth
Now we are drawing nearer. The seeker began his
journey with a positive experience. He set out on the way because he
needed something else. He strove for mental silence and found that his
very effort produced an Answer. He felt a descending Force, a new
vibration within him, which made life clearer, more alive. Perhaps he
even experienced a sudden tearing of the limits and emerged at another
altitude. The signs might have come in a thousand ways to indicate that a
new rhythm was setting in. But then, after this hopeful start,
everything became veiled, as if he had been dreaming or had become
carried away by some childish enthusiasm: something within him is now
busy taking its revenge through a spell of skepticism, disgust, or
revolt. This will be the second sign, perhaps the true sign, that
he is progressing and has come to grips with the realities of his
nature or, rather, that the descending Force has begun its churning
work. Ultimately, progress is not so much a matter of ascending as of
clearing up the prevailing obstructions – for when we are clear,
everything is right there. Thus the seeker begins to discover his many
obstructions. On the path of integral yoga, the feeling is often of
finding the worst when we had wished for the best, of waging war when we
had sought peace and light. Actually, let us face it, it is a
battle. As long as we are swimming with the current, we can believe
ourselves to be very nice, proper and well-intentioned individuals, but
the instant we take another direction, everything begins to resist. We
begin tangibly to appreciate the colossal forces that weigh upon human
beings and stupefy them; yet it is only by trying to get out of their
clutches that we can realize this. Once the seeker has had a first
decisive opening above, once he has seen the Light, then almost
simultaneously he feels a kick in the shins, as if something in him were
in pain. Now he knows what Sri Aurobindo meant by the wounded gloom complaining against light.226 And he will have learned his first lesson: each step upward is necessarily followed by a step downward.
Instead of taking these sharp jolts as a kind
of fatality, the seeker will make them the basis of his work. Indeed,
this dual movement of ascent and descent is the fundamental process of
the integral yoga: On each height we conquer we have to turn to bring down its power and its illumination into the lower mortal movement.227
Such is the price for transforming life, otherwise we merely poeticize
and spiritualize on the peaks, while below the old life keeps bumping
along. In practice, the downward movement is never created by an
arbitrary mental decision; the less the mind interferes in this, the
better. Besides, one wonders how the Mind could ever "descend,"
comfortably seated, as it is, behind its little desk. It is the awakened
and individualized consciousness-force in us that does all the work,
automatically. The moment we have attained a certain intensity of
consciousness and light, it automatically exerts a pressure on the rest
of our nature, which results in corresponding reactions of obscurity or
resistance. It is as if an overdose of oxygen were abruptly pumped into
the ocean's underworld: the deep-sea creatures would struggle
frantically, or even explode. This reversal of consciousness is strange
indeed, as if going from a well-lighted room to the same room filled with darkness, or from a joyous room to the same
room riddled with pain: everything is the same, and yet everything is
changed. As if it were the same force, the same vibratory intensity –
perhaps even the same vibration – but with a minus sign in front of it
instead of a plus sign. One can then observe, almost step by step, how
love changes into hate, for example, or how the pure becomes impure;
everything is the same, only reversed. Yet, as long as our psychological
states are merely the reverse of one another, and our good the back
side (perhaps we should say the front side?) of evil, life will never
change. Something radically different is needed – another type of
consciousness. All the poets and creative geniuses have known these
swings of consciousness. Even as he experienced his Illuminations,
Rimbaud visited strange realms that struck him with "terror"; he, too,
went through the law of dark inversion. But instead of being
unconsciously tossed from one extreme to another, of ascending without
knowing how and descending against his will, the integral seeker works
methodically, consciously, without ever losing his balance, and, above
all, with a growing confidence in the Consciousness-Force, which never
initiates more resistance than he can meet, and never unveils more
light than he can bear. After living long enough from one crisis to the
next, we will ultimately discern a pattern in the action of the Force,
and will notice that each time we seem to leave the ascending curve or
even lose something we had achieved, we ultimately retrieve the same
realization, but on a higher, more expanded level, made richer by the
part that our "fall" has added; had we not "fallen," this lower part
would never have become integrated into our higher ones. Perhaps it was
the same collective process that brought about Athens' fall, so that
some old barbarians, too, might be exposed to Plato. The integral yoga
does not follow a straight line rising higher and higher out of sight,
toward a smaller and smaller point, but, according to Sri Aurobindo, a spiral that slowly and methodically annexes all the parts of our being in an ever vaster opening based upon an ever deeper foundation.
Not only will we observe a pattern behind this Force, or rather this
Consciousness-Force, but also regular cycles and a rhythm as certain as
that of the tides and the moons. The more we progress, the wider the
cycles, and the closer their relationship with the cosmic movement
itself – until the day when we can perceive in our own descents the
periodical descents of consciousness on earth, and in our own
difficulties all the turmoil, resistance and revolt of the earth.
Eventually, everything will become so intimately interconnected that we
will be able to read in the tiniest things, the most insignificant
events of daily life or the objects nearby, the signs of vaster
depressions that will sweep over all men and compel their ascent or
descent within the same evolutionary wave. Then we will understand that
we are unfailingly being guided toward a Goal, that everything has a
meaning, even the slightest thing – nothing moves without moving
everything – and that we are on our way to a far greater adventure than
we had ever imagined.
Soon, a second paradox will strike us,
which is perhaps the very same one. Not only is there a law of ascent
and descent, but there is also, it seems, a kind of central
contradiction. We all have a goal in this life and through all our
lives, something unique to express, since every human being is unique;
this is our central truth, our own special evolutionary struggle. This
goal appears only gradually, after numerous experiences and successive
awakenings, as we begin to be a person with an inner development; we
then realize that a kind of thread runs through our life, as well as
through all our lives (if we have become conscious of them), indicating a
particular orientation, as if everything always propelled us in the
same direction – a direction that becomes increasingly poignant and
precise as we advance. Yet as we become conscious of this goal, we also
uncover a particular difficulty that seems to represent the very
opposite or contradiction of our goal. It is a strange situation, as if
we carried within us the exact shadow of our light – a shadow or
difficulty or problem that confronts us again and again with a baffling
insistence, always the same beneath different masks and in the most
diverse circumstances, returning with increasing strength after every
battle won and in exact proportion to our new intensity of consciousness
– as if we had to fight the same battle over and over again on each
newly conquered plane of consciousness. The clearer the goal becomes,
the stronger the shadow. Now we have met the Foe:
This hidden foe lodged in the human breast
Man must overcome or miss his higher fate.
This is the inner war without escape.228
Sri Aurobindo also calls it the Evil Persona.
Sometimes, we can even negatively guess what our goal must be, before
understanding it positively, through the sheer repetition of the same
difficult circumstances or the same failures that seem to point to a
single direction, as if we were forever revolving in an oppressive
circle, drawing nearer and nearer to a central point that is both the
goal and the opposite of the goal. A person greatly endowed for the work, Sri Aurobindo wrote, has
always or almost always, perhaps one ought not to make a too rigid
universal rule about these things – a being attached to him, sometimes
appearing like a part of him, which is just the contradiction of the
thing he centrally represents in the work to be done. Or if it is not
there at first, not bound to his personality, a force of this kind
enters into his environment as soon as he begins his movement to
realize. Its business seems to be to oppose, to create stumblings and
wrong conditions, in a word, to set before him the whole problem of the
work he has started to do. It would seem that the problem could not, in
the occult economy of things, be solved otherwise than by the
predestined instrument making the difficulty his own. That would explain
many things that seem very disconcerting on the surface.229 In her talks to the disciples, Mother stressed the same phenomenon: If
you represent a possibility of victory, you always have in you the
opposite of this victory, which is your constant torment. When you see a
very black shadow somewhere in you, something truly painful, you can be
sure that you also have the corresponding possibility of light. And she added: You
have a special goal, a special mission, your own particular
realization, and you carry within yourself all the obstacles needed to
make this realization perfect. Always you will find that shadow and
light go together in you: you have a capacity, you have also the
negation of that capacity. And if you discover a very dense and
deep-rooted shadow in you, you can be certain there is also a great
light somewhere. It is up to you to use the one in order to realize the
other.
Life's secret may have eluded us simply because
of our imperfect grasp of this dual law of light and darkness and of
the enigma of our double nature – animal and divine. Trained in a
Manichaean conception of existence, we have seen in it, as our ethics
and religions have taught us, a relentless struggle between Good and
Evil, Truth and Falsehood, in which is was important to be on the good
side, on the right hand of the Lord. We have cut everything in two:
God's kingdom and the Devil's, the lower life in this world and the true
life in heaven. We had tried to do away with the opposite of the goal,
but have at the same time done away with the
goal itself. For the goal is not to be amputated, either from the
bottom or from the top. As long as we reject one for the other, we will
fail miserably and miss the goal of existence. Everything is one: if we
remove anything, everything falls apart. How could we possibly remove
"evil" without blowing up the whole world? If a single man were to free
himself from "evil," then the world would utterly disintegrate, because
all is one. There is one single substance in the world, not two,
not a good one and an evil one. One can neither remove nor add anything.
This is why, also, no miracle can save the world. The miracle is already in the world, all possible lights are already in the world, all imaginable heavens are already here;
any foreign element would upset the whole. All is right here. We are
right in the middle of the miracle, only we are missing the key to it.
Perhaps there is nothing for us to remove or to add, not even "something
else" to discover, but the same thing, only perceived differently.
If we want to find the Goal, we must set
aside our Manichaeism and come to a realistic appreciation of what Sri
Aurobindo called "the dark half of truth."230 Human knowledge, he wrote,
throws a shadow that conceals half the globe of truth from its own
sunlight.... The rejection of falsehood by the mind seeking utter truth
is one of the chief causes why mind cannot attain to the settled,
rounded and perfect truth.231
If we eliminate everything that is wrong – and God knows this world is
full of mistakes and impurities – we may well arrive at some truth, but
it will be an empty truth. The practical approach to the Secret is,
first of all, to realize, and then to see that each thing in this world, even the most grotesque or far-wandering error,232
contains a spark of truth beneath its mask, because everything here is
God advancing toward Himself; there is nothing outside Him. For
error is really a half truth that stumbles because of its limitations;
often it is Truth that wears a disguise in order to arrive unobserved
near to its goal. If a single thing in this world were totally
wrong, the whole world would be totally wrong. Thus, if the seeker sets
out with this premise – a positive premise – and ascends step by step,
each time accepting to take the corresponding step downward in order to free the same light233
hidden under every mask, in every element, even in the darkest mud, the
most grotesque mistake or sordid evil, he will gradually see everything
becoming clearer before his eyes, not only in theory but tangibly, and
he will discover not only summits but abysses of Truth.234
He will realize that his Foe was a most diligent helper, most concerned
with ensuring the perfect effectiveness of his realization, first,
because each battle has increased his strength, and then because each
fall has compelled him to free the truth below instead of escaping alone
to empty summits. Ultimately, he will understand that his particular
burden was the very burden of our Mother the Earth, also striving toward
her share of light. The Princes of Darkness are already saved! They are
at work, the scrupulous exactors of an all-inclusive Truth, rather than
a truth that excludes everything:
Not only is there hope for godheads pure;
The violent and darkened deities
Leaped down from the one breast in rage to find
What the white gods had missed; they too are safe.235
Now the seeker will realize that each thing has its own inevitable place in the whole. Not only can nothing be left out, but nothing is more important or less important,
as if the total problem were represented in the smallest incident or
the slightest everyday gesture, as much as in cosmic upheavals; perhaps,
too, the total Light and Joy are contained as much in the most
infinitesimal atom as in the superconscious infinities. Now the dark
half of the truth has become illuminated. Every stumbling or error
kindles a flame of pain and seems to produce a breach of light below;
every weakness summons up a corresponding force, as if the energy of the
fall were the very energy of the ascent; every imperfection is a step
toward a greater fulfillment. There are no sins, no errors, but only
countless mishaps that compel us to attend to the full extent of our
kingdom and to embrace everything in order to heal and fulfill
everything. Through a tiny crack in our armor, a love and compassion for
the world have entered in, which none of the radiant
purities can ever understand; purity is impregnable, self-contained,
sealed off like a fortress; some fissure is needed for the Truth to come
in!
[He] made error a door by which Truth could enter in.236
There is a truth of Love behind evil. The nearer one draws to the infernal circles, the more one uncovers the great need
in the depths of Evil and begins to understand that nothing can be
healed without a corresponding intensity: a flame is kindled within,
more and more powerful and warm beneath the suffocating pressure – there
is just Her, nothing but Her – as if Love alone could confront the
Night and persuade it of its luminous half. As if all that Shadow had
been necessary so that Love might be born. In truth, the heart of every
shadow, of every evil harbors the inverse mystery. And as each of us
bears or harbors a special difficulty, at once the contradiction and the
sign of our destiny, it may be that, similarly, the immense "faults" of
the earth – her sins and sufferings and the thousand gaping wounds of a
pauper – are the very sign of her destiny, and that someday she will
incarnate perfect Love and Joy because she will have suffered all and
understood all.
As we progress, the superconscious line recedes
upward and the subconscious line downward. Everything widens,
everything is illuminated, but everything also closes in and converges
around a sharp point of darkness, increasingly acute, crucial and
pressing, as if we had turned for years and years – for lifetimes –
around the same Problem without ever having truly touched it. Then,
suddenly, it is right there, at the bottom of the hole, wriggling
beneath the Light – all the evil of the world within one point. The time
of the Secret is drawing near. For the law of descent is not a law of
oppression, sin, or fall, any more than it is a law of repentance or
heavenward escape, but truly a Golden Law, an unfathomable Premeditation
that draws us simultaneously upward and downward into the depths of the
subconscient and inconscient, to that central point,237 that knot of life and death, shadow and light, where the Secret awaits us. The nearer we draw to the Summit, the more we touch the Depths.
The Great Passage
The last steps of the descent take place
beyond the subconscient, in our evolutionary past, in our former,
prehistorical consciousness, at the level where, for the first time in
the world, life emerged from what seemed to be death; that is, at the
border between the material inconscient and the physical consciousness –
the witness and residue of that original birth – in our body. The
organs and cells of our body have their own type of highly organized,
efficient consciousness, which knows how to choose, to receive or to
reject, and which can be manipulated once we have reached a sufficient
yogic development. If it were merely a question of improving life's
present conditions, the ordinary yogic consciousness would be enough:
extension of life at will, immunity against diseases, and even a lasting
youth are but some of the frequent results of that discipline. But, as
we have said, we seek to change life, not just to improve its facade.
Beneath our present physical consciousness lies a physical subconscient,
the product of life's evolution in Matter, which keeps a record of all
the old habits of life, of which the worst is the habit of dying – its
reflexes, its fears, its contractions, and above all its habits of
closure, as if it had retained the memory of the many protective shells
it had to build around itself in order to protect its growth. In the
very depths of this physical subconscient, where every form of
consciousness or memory seems to die out, one reaches the bedrock, the
initial Shell, the underlying Death from which life wrenched itself
free. It is something very hard and very vast, so vast and so hard that
the Vedic rishis called it "the infinite rock." This is the Inconscient.
It is a wall – or perhaps a door. It is the bottom, or perhaps merely a
crust. Moreover, it may not be completely dead or unconscious, for it
does not feel like something negatively inert, but like something positively negative, as it were, something that refuses, that says No to life:
The stubborn mute rejection in Life's depths,
The ignorant No in the origin of things.238
If the very depths were total Nothingness,
there would be no hope, and, in fact, nothing could have grown from
nothing, whereas this bedrock bottom is something. If there is a No, there must be a Yes
inside; if there is Death, there must be Life inside. And finally, if
there is an end, there must be a beginning on the other side. Every
negative is necessarily the other half of a positive. Every bottom is a
surface covering something else. The very meaning of Sri Aurobindo's
yoga is to uncover the positive of all these negatives, in every element
and at every level of consciousness and, God willing, to uncover the
supreme Positive (neither positive nor negative, it just is),
which will unravel our dualities once and for all, those of the bottom
as well as the duality of a life that dies or of a Death that lives.
At Chandernagore, Sri Aurobindo had reached the last levels of the physical subconscient. He was before a wall: No, it is not with the Empyrean that I am busy, I wish it were. It is rather with the opposite end of things.239
Knowing the kind of resistance and violent reactions one meets when
barely touching the mental and vital subconscient, the snakepit, one can
image the difficulty of that descent. The farther one descends, the
higher the consciousness required, the stronger the light, since one can
only descend as low as one has ascended. And if one understands that
consciousness is a force, as tangible as an electric current, one can
imagine the traumas and ordeals the overmental power and light can cause
as they pour like a cataract into the quagmire of the physical
subconscient – an assault of ether and of fire.240
There are tremendous difficulties, and even dangers, in this to which
we will return when discussing the transformation. As long as we are
merely involved with mental or vital resistances, our moral lies, we
need only to cultivate willpower and patience, but when we descend lower we must face the lies of the body,
as the Mother says, namely, diseases and death. This is why Sri
Aurobindo and Mother insisted upon a sound physical base for their
disciples: Work from both ends; do not neglect one for the other.
As he reached the extreme overmental
frontiers, where "great colored waves" fade into white confines, Sri
Aurobindo simultaneously touched the black rock at the bottom:
I have been digging deep and long
Mid a horror of filth and mire....
A voice cried, "Go where none have gone!
Dig deeper, deeper yet
Till thou reach the grim foundation stone
And knock at the keyless gate."241
Then, one day in 1910, at Chandernagore, a
strange thing happened.... But before describing the experience that
would change the course of our evolution, let us stop to take stock and
briefly review the present human condition. It is really quite simple:
we are stuck in Matter, imprisoned in the Black Egg that constrains us
on all sides every second of the day. There are not a hundred ways of
getting out of it, but only two: one is to fall asleep (to dream, to fly
into ecstasy, or to meditate, but all are more or less lofty, conscious
or divine gradations of sleep), and the other is to die. Sri
Aurobindo's experience, however, provides a third possibility, allowing
us to get out without flying into ecstasy or dying – that is, to get out
without actually getting out – thereby reversing the course of man's
spiritual evolution, since the goal is no longer only above or outside,
but inside; and, in addition, opening the door of waking life to all the
dreams, all the ecstasies, and especially to all the powers that can
help us incarnate our dreams and transform the Black Egg into an open,
clear and livable place. That day of 1910, in Chandernagore, Sri
Aurobindo had reached the very depths, had broken through all the
squalid layers upon which Life has grown like an inexplicable flower.
There was only that Light above shining more and more intensely as he
went down, bringing
out all the impurities one after another under its keen ray, as if all
that night were drawing in an ever greater amount of Light, as if the
subconscious boundaries were receding farther and farther downward in an
ever greater concentration – the mirror image of the concentration
above – and leaving just that one wall of Shadow beneath that one Light.
Then, suddenly, without warning, in the depths of this "unconscious"
Matter and in the very cells of this body, Sri Aurobindo was thrust into
the supreme Light, without trance, without loss of individuality,
without cosmic dissolution, and with his eyes wide open:
He broke into another Space and Time.242
Night, Evil, Death are masks. The supreme
Opposition awakens the supreme Intensity, and the analogous becomes
Itself – there is only One, tad ekam. The Solar World, the
supreme, supramental, divine consciousness, of which all the other
worlds are separate rays, was present in the very heart of Matter. The
step above the overmind is not "above"; it is here within all things.
The door below opens the door above and everywhere:
A fathomless sealed astonishment of Light.243
A grand reversal of the Night and Day
All the world's values changed....244
The high meets the low, all is a single plan.245
The most remote Past touches the heart of the
Future that conceived it, God-Spirit meets God-Matter, and there is a
divine life in a body. Sat-Chit-Ananda above is Sat-Chit-Ananda
below, Existence-Consciousness-Power-Joy. Evolution does not abort into
a white or black sleep; nothing is swallowed up into Darkness; nothing
is annihilated heavenward; everything connects at last in a perfect
circle. Joy above is Joy below:
An exultation in the depths of sleep,
A heart of bliss within a world of pain.246
An active joy, a powerful illumination within our very veins, instead of a sterile bliss above our heads:
Almighty powers are shut in Nature's cells.247
For the Supramental is not a more ethereal
consciousness, but a denser one. It is the very Vibration that creates
and endlessly recreates Matter and the worlds. It is what can transform
the Earth:
In the very depths of the hardest, most rigid,
narrowest and most asphyxiating unconsciousness,
wrote the Mother,
I struck upon an Almighty Spring
that cast me up forthwith into a formless,
limitless Vast vibrating with the seeds of a New World.
Such is the key to the Transformation, the key
to overcoming the laws of Matter by using the Consciousness within
Matter – Consciousness above is Consciousness below. It is the door to
the future world and the new earth announced by the Scriptures two
thousand years ago: "A new earth wherein the Truth shall dwell." (2
Peter 3. 13) For, actually, the earth is our salvation, the ultimate
place of Victory and of perfect accomplishment. There is no need to
escape to heaven. All is here, totally, in the body – Joy,
Consciousness, supreme Powers – if we have the courage to unseal our
eyes and to descend, to dream a living dream instead of a sleeping one:
They must enter into the last finite if they want to reach the last infinite.248
At the same time, Sri Aurobindo was retrieving
the lost Secret, that of the Veda and of all the more or less distorted
traditions from Persia to Central America and the Rhine Valley, from
Eleusis to the Cathars and from the Round Table to the Alchemists – the
ancient Secret of all the seekers of perfection. This is the quest for
the Treasure in the depths of the cave; the battle against the
subconscious forces (ogres, dwarves, or serpents); the legend of Apollo
and the Python, Indra and the Serpent Vritta, Thor and the giants,
Sigurd and Fafner; the solar myth of the Mayas, the Descent of Orpheus,
the Transmutation. It is the serpent biting it own tail. And above all,
it is the secret of the Vedic rishis, who were probably the first to
discover what they called "the great passage," mahas pathah, (II.24.6) the world of "the unbroken Light," Swar, within the rock of the Inconscient: "Our fathers by their words broke the strong and stubborn places, the Angiras seers249
shattered the mountain rock with their cry; they made in us a path to
the Great Heaven, they discovered the Day and the sun-world," (Rig Veda
I.71.2) they discovered "the Sun dwelling in the darkness." (III.39.5)
They found "the treasure of heaven hidden in the secret cavern like the
young of the Bird, within the infinite rock." (I.130.3)
Shadow and Light, Good and Evil have all prepared a divine birth in Matter: "Day and Night both suckle the divine Child."250
Nothing is accursed, nothing is in vain. Night and Day are "two
sisters, immortal, with a common Lover (the Sun)... common they, though
different their forms." (I.113.2.3) At the end of the "pilgrimage" of
ascent and descent, the seeker is "a son of the two Mothers (III.55.7):
the son of Aditi, the white Mother251 of the superconscious infinite, and the son of Diti,
the earthly Mother of "the dark infinite." He possesses "the two
births," human and divine, "eternal and in one nest... as the Enjoyer of
his two wives" (I.62.7): "The contents of the pregnant hill252
(came forth) for the supreme birth... a god opened the human doors."
(V.45) "Then indeed, they awoke and saw all behind and wide around them,
then, indeed, they held the ecstasy that is enjoyed in heaven. In all
gated houses253 were all the gods." (Rig Veda IV.1.18)
Man's hope is fulfilled as well as the rishi's prayer: "May Heaven and Earth be equal and one."254 The great Balance is at last restored.
Heaven in its rapture dreams of perfect earth,
Earth in its sorrow dreams of perfect heaven...
They are kept from their oneness by enchanted fears.255
And finally, there is joy – Ananda. It
is at the beginning of things and at the end and everywhere, if we dig
deep enough. It is "the well of honey covered by the rock." (Rig Veda II.24.4)
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