Plan for the future, some confessions of the past [Part One]

"Those who have the privilege to know have the duty to act."

Albert Einstein

After a rollercoaster adventure in the world of spirituality, I learned to know people from all walks of life, putting me on a more Budhistic path towards enlightenment, not for myself alone, but for those who suffer the most in society. From my personal experience after years of being involved in the luciferian path of gaining knowledge, I feel that I need to be brave enough to choose to write in the future on the help for people with allmost no rights, no hope, left alone behind closed doors, in psychiatric institutions. The subject itself is still unknown, taboo and untouched in the media, and if so only in a negative context so I guess I can benefit both professionals and clients by starting to write my story, with a scientific mind, however I'm still a mystic. I walked around with the misfits and the most marginalised of society, and became friends with a member of the Rockefeller family, Mehal Rockefeller (a family who did things I totally condemn, but forgive, taking them on a journey as well to help the human race). I believe the whole of mankind is in this together, only by honesty, daring to speak out what went wrong, learning from these mistakes, and turn it to the right. I am blessed that I was able to learn so much from so many people. My task is to evolve more towards Love, in every step I take, knowledge and even Wisdom are useless if not practically applied. Maybe that can be my meditation for the rest of my life.

My path so far has been such a spiritual adventure since childhood, that – as my girlfriend often says – is so remarkable that not everyone would believe it, or thinks that you are just lying or pretending.

Short history of my life :

As a child, I was very well connected to the spiritual world, I saw things others could not see, unless they had some kind of paranormal sensitivy. Later on in life a rebellious childhood led me to a sex, drugs and rock 'n roll life until at age 17 I collapsed totally after the stress of my education. I graduated from high school with good results, but needed to recover and was brought to a mental hospital. A voice guided me to take a long rest there. I studied regular psychology and psychiatry to get some insight about what I was going through. I felt it to be a spiritual emergency were spiritual realisations and insights came too fast than I could handle and so I needed a break. Later on I struggled with many more breaks and all so quite a lot of physical disease, what brought me to more than ten years of struggling for health, even to survive (I almost had cancer of the liver ; did a suicide attempt that I survived in the struggle). This brought me to a deep study of the major religions, and made me study some hidden, occult and somehow 'forbidden' knowledge. Keep in mind that what I am writing next is just how I feel about it, I do not want to judge any believe system and hope that people will make their own conclusions.

During my periods of extreme illness, I was brought into theosophy by a spiritual healer. This gave me a great amount of insight and wisdom, until at a certain point I realise that I went to far than I actually wanted on the right-hand of path of luciferianism. I worked as a volunteer in mental health care, was active in music, poetry and writing, but realise now that I lost quite a lot time, forgetting the essence. It is well known that the great teacher Jiddu Krishnamurti came from the Theosophical Society which was founded by Helena Blavatsky. I learned a lot from Blavatsky's book The Sound of the Silence and went on the spiritual Boddhisattva Path. I wanted to serve others, after all the horror that I had been through, and the violations of human rights, not only in my life, but in the lives of the mentally ill. I recognised people there who where almost killed by trauma, couldn't bear the stress of the rat race 9 to 5 society anymore, and collapsed. This is not a black and white story, I mean : I was once in a mental hospital after a spiritual emergency (often totally misunderstood in the west) with a man who had been a psychiatrist himself before.

This all led me to enter Theosophy Studies, where I became a disciple (as I still am today), guided by my mentor figures who got me on track. I started to meditate, activated the kundalini energy quite to quickly, and became in serious trouble without finding proper guidance. What started as an innocent depression-like state, led me to a mission to improve the quality of both psychologists, psychiatrists and patients, as I feel that my dharma or task lies there the coming year.

If you enter such a mental hospital, you start to meet people who are seriously traumatised and seriously sensitive at the same time. It is a pity that the whole treatment in such hospitals is completely based on the drugs, what I feel is not the best thing to do. These drugs help in periods of severe collaps of the ego as in a so-called psychotic state (I prefer the use of the term visionary state or spiritual emergency), but that there are much better treatments to come, once people get informed that they are not 'sick' as they are now been told. They are in a transitory period, but the works of Dr John Weir Perry and Loren Mosher with Diabesis and Soteria houses are proof of a very good outcome beyond the medical model that only looks to the brain as the center of 'chemical inbalances'. We need to evolve towards an integral model in psychology, psychiatry and science of healing that never looses sight of the holistic view of a person. I recommend research on Perry and Mosher for further study, as well as the works of Stanislav Grof and Ken Wilber on the subject.

My ancestor Lieven Van Hooymissen once brewed the beer Saint Michael in Belgium, so we are in our DNA somehow related to this powerful angel so popular in the Roman-Catholic Church. The inquisition of the Church was a great sin, based on fear and fighting witches and demons. As I know know that demonic possession can exist in a person, killing someone in need is not the right solution. Stan Grofs writes on what to do when a person is in such a state. Allright, theosophy and even freemasonry (what are actually the pagan mystery religions brought back to life) are great to study, but I sometimes have great questions about the Luciferian aspect of the game. Lucifer has been known as a once greatest angel of God, but he wanted more power and became proud and fell out of grace. And thus the archetypical biblical story is known as the fall of Lucifer and his angels, what happened in the Garden of Eden when a Snake (in Catholic views this is Satan) tempted Eve and they got quicked out of Paradise. (A Snake in esoteric philosophy is an initiate into the forbidden knowledge),

Blavatsky founded the Theosophical Society where Jiddu Krishnamurti came from, and they titled their Magazine to Lucifer (they see Lucifer as the Light-bearer and a misunderstood fallen angel). Krishnamurti broke with theosophy and didn't want to be the chosen Messiah. It has been said that Rudolf Steiner left the Society because he felt that a dark force had entered Theosophy. He began with antrophosophy, his own esoteric beliefsystem.

Theosopical Magazine Lucifer

I came at a point that I want turn more towards the guidance of Michael, the Archangel, who is in our collective consciousness as a force for good, fighting Lucifer once he opposes himself with his followers to God. Here I try to take the buddhist approach, trying to walk as much as I can the Middle Way, in between of two extremes of light and darkness, trying not to judge the Luciferians, I am just writing for myself.

I lost quite a lot of time only figuring out mental concepts, only gaining more knowledge and wisdom whilst in a great mystical and spiritual fight, but forcing myself from the Boddhisattvic point of view to be of service to humanity, with my hypersensitive nervous system, I serve through writing.

The above picture shows what I mean losing yourself in the Luciferian trap. We, all of humanity are lesser than He In Whom We Live, what we call God, or the Universe. The mystery of the fall of the angels goes back to the very beginning of the human race, where all of us once were casted out of heaven towards this Earth, what Blavatsky called the greatest Hell of all Hells, if we realise what we do to eachother. But we can turn it right. I don't need to be a God, I don't need be higher than the force that created us, I think that in humility lies a great wisdom. I hope that we can turn it all right for humanity and the planet, by doing the best we can.

Luciferianism appears in Morals and Dogma, the masonic book by Albert Pike:

“Lucifer, the Light-bearer!  Strange and mysterious name to give to the Spirit of Darkness!  Lucifer, the Son of the Morning!  Is it he who bears the Light, and with its splendors intolerable, blinds feeble, sensual, or selfish souls?  Doubt it not!” - Albert Pike, Morals and Dogma

As in the works of Manly P. Hall :

"The day has come when Fellow Craftsman must know and apply their knowledge.  The lost key to their grade is the mastery of emotion , which places the energy of the universe at their disposal.  Man can only expect to be entrusted with great power by proving his ability to use it constructively and selflessly.  When the Mason learns that the key to the warrior on the block is the proper application of the dynamo of living power, he has learned the mystery of his Craft.  The seething energies of Lucifer are in his hands, and before he may step onward and upward, he must prove his ability to properly apply energy.  He must follow in the footsteps of his forefather, Tubal-Cain, who with the mighty strength of the war god hammered his sword into a plowshare." [Manly P. Hall, 33rd Degree, K.T., The Lost Keys of Freemasonry or The Secret of Hiram Abiff , Forward by Reynold E. Blight, 33rd Degree, K.T., Illustrations by J. Augustus Knapp, 32nd Degree, Macoy Publishing and Masonic Supply Company, Inc., Richmond, Virginia, p. 48; Emphasis Added]

This statement is the most bold and concise anyone can create in the English language!  It boldly states that, once the Mason learns to control his emotion, and to properly apply the "dynamo of living power", he can be assured of being able to control the "seething energies of Lucifer" in his hands.  Further, he admits that Masonry is the Craft, the old name for Witchcraft! Further, all Satanists are assured that, if they will join the coven and learn the Craft, he will control the supernatural power of Satan, just as Manly P. Hall is promising here. 

Note: Not all occultism and mysticism is satanic per se, yoga is also a kind of occultism and so old and well-known, that it has nothing to do with satanism, as one might meet dark forces on his yoga path. Sri Aurobindo as a yogi gives good advice how to deal with this in His writings.
Source : http://www.cuttingedge.org/free11.html

Helena Blavatsky, founder of the Theosophical Society in her own words:

"One of the most hidden secrets involves the so-called fall of Angels. Satan and his rebellious host will thus prove to have become the direct Saviours and Creators of divine man. Thus Satan, once he ceases to be viewed in the superstitious spirit of the church, grows into the grandiose image. It is Satan who is the God of our planet and the only God. Satan (or Lucifer) represents the Centrifugal Energy of the Universe, this ever-living symbol of self-sacrifice for the intellectual independence of humanity. "----H.P. Blavatsky, The Secret Doctrine

I studied what happens in psychiatric institutions as a form a behavioristical conditioning, brainwashing and mind-control, even eugenics is involved.

I feel that with the appropriate approach, and with a 21^st century in from of us with a lot of mental illness (so-called mental illness) in front of us as an attempt to work towards an integral approach, trying to train therapists and psychologists into the wisdom that Stan Grof brought to use with his Transpersonal School in psychology, keeping pharmaceutical drugs as the last option, and never using force when people get into an altered state.

Considering me, I am very blessed that the government of Belgium has helped me financial for survival, it's now my duty after being misled towards the forbidden fruit of knowledge, to take a step back towards God, the archangel Michael as my guide, and being very aware of the danger of Luciferianism once the hunger for power, status, fame, ego and so on comes into play.

I understand Jiddu Krishnamurti's decision of getting out of theosophy going his own way further. The system of initiation into the wisdom of the mystery schools is beautiful and can make better persons of human beings, the same goes on for people who are true believers of the Roman-Catholic religion, believers in Christ Jesus, as the same goes up for Muslims who become better men by following their religion, as Hindus following Krishna, and so on and so forth. At the moment I am reading the Saint Theresa Van Avila and she gives me inspiration these days.

I made a mistake, being plunged into Luciferianism, but I'm not quite alone, as the United Nations use it as their backbone and basis, and – I believe that we need a safer fundament in the future.

United Nations based on the Luciferian principle: http://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/sociopolitica/esp_sociopol_lucytrust04.htm

I returned to the Abrahmic God, the God of the Bible, the God of Islam, I respect Krishna of Hinduism and am inspired by His peace mission, as I love  the God of the Jews, any God who makes a better person out of people. If Luciferianism does this to others, okay, no problem. I loved the teachings of Manly P. Hall, a masonic philosopher; but I made the choice of following the pure guidance of Michael the archangel.

These forces described are very active and alive behind the visible world, behind-the-scenes of our world. I have to write another book on this, in order to consctructively help reforming psychological health care in the future as I feel that it is the dharma for me, I have to. Those who have the privilege to know, have the duty to act. I will discuss in the book the influence of eugenics, and how unethical it can be, and how it all can turned to the right direction.

Mehal Rockefeller said:

"We are here to help humanity. The human race has to evolve. We have to evolve fast. There is no point in waiting for things to happen. So that will be what Rockefeller Centers will be doing. There will be scientists on one hand, and spiritualists on the other hand, sitting at a round table and creating a better world. That is how we will create a Golden Age."

I hope we can turn it right, working towards an honest and democratic world, not one of slavery of the masses.

I'm not here as an enemy of anybody, only a cricital builder of a better future with tips, in order to help mankind solving problems that are so difficult, as politics is involved, religion, sociology, ethics and so on. Many people will end up in a emotional or mental collaps sooner or later, as it will be one of the main causes of disease in the 21^st century for people form all walks of life. Even people form the richest of the rich, as I know from these people themselves, can benefit from it. What is now still stigma and taboo needs to be reformed to an ethical science of the soul.

I know what to do the coming year, with my faith in that force that created us, without judging the pagans as the Inquisition did years and years ago, but walking with the forces of Michael, the archangel, instead of getting more involved in Luciferianism or Satanism. Been there, done that, next chapter. And let us not be so stupid to get involved into another world war, because that would be the most stupid thing we can do globally; however there are forces who want this for financial gain.

מייקל הוא גדול מכל המלאכים ואני עוקב אחריו צנוע, להראות לנו את הדרך מיכאל!

Anyway, there might be pagans who are better individuals towards society compared to fanatics. Theological explainations of the Holy Scriptures are completely different from the occult interpretations, as the occultist sees with different eyes. It would be great that the war in the Heavens could end in peace between Michael and Lucifers, in fact : ware are all children of God, and maybe Lucifer has a point as we study knowledge on school and try to find new, hidden stuff in science and philosophy, that is also a quest towards knowledge - isn't it? A difficult question, but Michael Tsarion is planning to start a mystery school, made by a man with the name Michael, but he thinks that Helena Blavatsky, the Luciferian, made a huge contribution to mankind by revealing her Secret Doctrine to the world.
Maybe we all have to end the wars in the Heavens, united, and transcend duality all together. The Buddhist Middle Way keeps the balance in between of the opposites.

These kind of spiritual quests are often the real living reality for people on the Path, of overwhelmingly experienced by people in altered states who the West sees as completely insane. The shamans see so-called mentally ill people as 'healers that are born' and 'good news from the other worlds'. A person might be picked out in order to learn to heal himself under the guidance of a master and later on becomes a healer, psychologist, psychiatrist, or communicates a message for the evolution of the community. The knowledge is forgotten in the West and we must re-integrate that in science, religion and philosophy what is happening with people like Stanislav Grof, Ken Wilber and many others.

On Eugenics

The people who are seen by hardcore eugenicists as "useless eaters" are those often who are sick, poor and not useful for labour. I guess that the sensitives who are that group of 25% of society according to the research of psychologist Elaine Aron. These people don't fit in in regular society, can't handle the stress and so on and suffer quickly from so-called mental illness, depression, bipolar depression, psychosis, burn-outs and so on. In other cultures they get their roles as healers, in the West, they are the ones who become the artists, the writers, the thinkers, the inventors, sometimes they can handle their sensitivity and become successful in politics (See what Artistotle writes about melancholia). 

WHY is it that all those who have become eminent in philosophy or politics or poetry or the arts are clearly of an atrabilious [ill-tempered and melancholic] temperament, and some of them to such an extent as to be affected by diseases caused by black bile, as is said to have happened to Heracles among the heroes? – Aristotle, Problemata XXX.1

These people can benefit society quite a lot, if they are offered more freedom, a basic income and a possibility to work in an environment of freedom. Quite often they can benefit their society enormously. So the philosophy of eugenics is often unethical, and the question is : who deceides who needs to be weeded-out, and who will not be destroyed on the long term. As a buddhist, I have compassion for all sentient beings, so I have problems with eugenics. Eugenics is completely wrong for the sensitives, they are a great help for society if understood well and guided well by wisdom towards mastering themselves, instead of being punished, drugged and locked-up against their wills. If mental illness can be more and more understood as a reaction to trauma that needs to be healed with love, compassion and understanding, and if therapists and psychiatrists would understand the transformative potential of crises and altered states, these people would find their ways back to society more easily. In the animal world, the sensitives are the protectors for the survival of the pack, because they sense danger more rapidly and can inform the rest of the pack quicker compared to normal, less sensitive animals. They have a evolutionary function that benefits the whole pack, and in our culture, in the human world, they could benefit the same, if properly understood in a more shamanic way. Thus psychology and the whole health care industry needs to be transformed if possible, beyond the medical drug-based model that become popular for the money, where the Rockefeller-family played an important role in (sorry Mehal Rockefeller, my, friend, but this is a fact). We need to step out of a profit based psychology and medical profession, evolving towards a healing-based model, where alternative medicine gets its fair place as well. Pharmaceuticals can be still helpful in times of emergency, but on the long term they damage everything and they are addictive.

What people see as psychotics, I see as people with a sometimes overloaded and disturbed sixth sense, sometimes they are even mystics, so a paradigm shift would be helpful. I believe to this very day that in the future, the works of Stanislav Grof, a visionary psychiatrist will become more important, if the pharmaceutical industry gets out of the way in only wanting to sell drugs, instead of caring about health and patients.

In a way, the wisdom from the mysteries, that Luciferian stuff, is the same knowledge that yogis and shamans possess, however it is not seen as evil in those cultures. In occultism there is black magic and white magic, where white magic is bonafide for the culture, and black magic is magic use for egoistic goals, or to harm people. All these things exists since ages but are only to be found in the esoteric and mystical brotherhoods and in some esoteric forms of freemasonry. The knowledge of the mysteries should be provided towards all those who can benefit from it. If occult history is true, than it has been said that Atlantis was destroyed because of the misuse of this hidden knowledge, it became sorcery and black magic and this the culture was destroyed. We must prevent this in our modern world for sure. A scientific study, with an integral approach is a good point to start from. Freemasonry comes from the ancient mysteries, and many powerful people in politicis are involved in freemasonry, so why no use it to the benefit of those in spiritual emergencies, preparing them for their task in society instead of making lifelong drugged zombies of so many poor sensitive people.

Hidden knowledge

Lucifer's network - by Michael Sunstar - A critical analysis

Clinics should provide libraries where knowledge and wisdom is available, and it has to be said that today, theosophy is the only tradition that provides in this great demand for this occult guidance, however it is Luciferian in nature. The Luciferian thing is as old as the history of the world. One day we were casted out of Heaven, did what was not allowed in the Garden of Eden by listening to a Snake (Satan, or an initiate or Adept of the occult sciences) and became Knowing and were thrown out of the Garden of Eden. It's collective unconscious history of the planet. The Gods then said: "Man became as US [plural]", thus by eating the forbidden fruit, ordinary men became the same as the Gods that ruled them. Is that good or bad, I don't know. We don't get the whole picture of this story through our theologians, there is more to the story, as many researchers now even claim that we are the product of genetically modification by an alien force, These ancients or the Gods that ruled us are said to come from Sirius, but I don't know the whole story. Sirius is still celebrated as important in ancient Egypt, in some Aboriginal tribes and in Freemasonry. Thus the Knowers of the Forbidden knowledge became the Gods and rulers, as were their ancients before them. Brotherhoods were formed to pass the knowledge through the ages, and disciples, initiates and Adepts came through the ages. It is said that all the Avatars and Prophet had access to that kind of knowledge. Was Lucifer the bad guy by freeing us with his knowledge, making us as powerful as our ruling gods? I don't think so, the bad thing that our christian theology learns us about lucifer, is that it might be a deceiving, power-mad angel, opposed to the will of God, or Gods, and thus a Satan (opposer). I hope one day we will know the whole truth, I respect Michael as my angel that fight ignorance and is the most beloved and powerful benefitial angel in the angelic hierarchy, where lucifer is tricky because of his pride. Those who want to be like the Gods must follow the Luciferian doctrine, I make another move know, as I was a Luciferian and learned a lot, but am returning to the basics od theology, following my heart and intution and am totally against the enslavement of the human race and a possible Anti-christ system of Kingdom. We don't know what is in front of us, Luciferians like Manly P. Hall gave me great knowledge and wisdom by their teachings, but did it help me combat poverty and benefiting a lot to my community of the suffering of others beyong the knowledge and wisdom thing? I don't think so. Now I really want to contribute instead of wasting to much time by only gaining knowledge. I don't know where it all started. Blavatsky sees it as stated before :

"One of the most hidden secrets involves the so-called fall of Angels. Satan and his rebellious host will thus prove to have become the direct Saviours and Creators of divine man. Thus Satan, once he ceases to be viewed in the superstitious spirit of the church, grows into the grandiose image. It is Satan who is the God of our planet and the only God. Satan (or Lucifer) represents the Centrifugal Energy of the Universe, this ever-living symbol of self-sacrifice for the intellectual independence of humanity. "----H.P. Blavatsky, The Secret Doctrine

Satan is thus the ruler of this fallen planet earth, there is a book with that title by William Guy Carr, he is opposed to the will of God or the Gods, but what Gods are we talking about. If we study the Clay Tablets, then we learn that the Annunaki, those who from Heaven to Earth came as our creators, had several Lords or Gods amongst them. Was there even war in between these different Gods and was the Abrahmic God one God, and the favorite of Lucifer a possible other. I don't have the slightest clue. The only thing that I do know, is that I respect the Abrahmic religions, opposed to the plan of Adam Weishaupt who wanted them destroyed. I never was a strick Catholic or Christian, I was more the mystic of the occultist, but I oppose the plan of Albert Pike, the Freemason who wants Christianity to be destroyed and the Luciferian doctrine to be standard. People have free will and in my humble opinion nobody's religion needs to be destroyed. Maybe we need an update of the Truth, the real Truth of our origins, but the Christian religion must be able to be followed, as the pagan-luciferian-freemasonic tradition is another Path, let people use their free wills instead of chosing for people. Even the Lucis Trust says on its website : There is always a choice of two paths, and it is a choice which must, for the human being, be guided by free will.

Alice Bailey's Lucis Trust (Former Lucifer Publishing Company) claims :

The mystery of the descent or "fall" to Earth of the rebellious angels—the solar angels oragnishvattas—is said to be the mystery hinted at in the Scriptures, and "the secret of the ages" (Esoteric Psychology II, p. 93). Thus it is not surprising that there is so much confusion and misunderstanding concerning the "fallen angels" of which Lucifer is the best known representative.
The secret of the "fallen angels" is essentially the mystery which lies behind the very Plan of evolution, for the solar angels' willingness to "fall", to sacrifice themselves in order to bring the light of the principle of mind to what was then animal man, marked the coming into action of the great Law of Duality by which matter, form—negative and passive—could be quickened by spirit. This act of sacrifice at the dawn of human history is a thread woven throughout the great scriptures and mythologies of the world, including the myth of Prometheus who stole fire (mind) for man, and the biblical story of the Prodigal Son, who left the Father’s home to embark upon the path of experience in the life of form and the senses—the journey to "the far country".
The role of the solar angels and their sacrifice on behalf of humanity is discussed at length inThe Secret Doctrine by H.P. Blavatsky. In fact, in 1887 the magazine of the Theosophical Society took "Lucifer" as its name in an effort to bring clarity to what it regarded as an unfairly maligned sacrificing angel.
The name "Lucifer" comes from the Latin words, Lux or Lucis (light) and ferre (to bring); thus Lucifer literally means "light-bearer". It is linked with the planet Venus in Revelations XXII: 16 when Christ says "I am the bright morning star", which is Venus, heralding the coming into full light of the Sun—the Son, the Christ. Interestingly the role of "light-bearer" is linked with Mercury, or Hermes—the divine messenger for the Gods in Greek and Roman mythology. In Christianity Mercury’s function is served by St. Michael, "the Angel Guardian" of Christ, according to St. Thomas. The esoteric interrelationship of this Angel Guardian and Christ is further illumined in the statement by the Tibetan teacher with whom Alice Bailey collaborated to write a series of books on the Ageless Wisdom, that "Mercury and the Sun are one".
Esoterically, the role of Guardian Angel was made possible by the sacrifice of the solar angels in their preservation of the principle of mind or, occultly, fire, through persistent repeated incarnations in form until animal man became thinking man and, finally, began to awaken to his true spiritual heritage: human/divine man. Thus the solar angel creates the form for the incarnating soul principle—the causal body—and it also withdraws that body at the fourth initiation, when the link between form and spirit has been permanently fused and the causal body is shattered.
The notion of the "rebellious angel" seems to trace back to the poet John Milton in Paradise Lost, which seemed to anchor in human consciousness the idea of the descent of the solar angels as an act of rebellion and therefore a fall from grace. ("To reign is worth ambition, though in Hell: Better to reign in Hell than serve in Heaven.") Yet this spirit of rebellion and ensuing pain is not found on Venus, we are told by the Tibetan. The rebellious spirit appears to rest squarely on Earth, for the Tibetan suggests that this spirit of rebellion qualified the attitude of our planetary Logos himself, the "Divine Rebel". The Tibetan quotes the Old Commentary:

He entered into life and knew it to be death.He took a form and grieved to find it dark.He drove Himself forth from the secret place and sought the place of light, and light revealed all that he sought the least.He craved permission to return.He sought the Throne on high and Him who sat thereon.He said "I sought not this. I looked for peace, for light, for scope to serve, to prove my love and to reveal my power. Light there is none. Peace is not found. Let me return.But He who sat upon the Throne turned not his head. He seemed not even to listen nor to hear. But from the lower sphere of darkness and of pain a voice came forth and cried: "We suffer here. We seek the light. We need the glory of an entering God. [I can find no other words except these last two to express the ancient symbol from which I am translating.] Lift us to Heaven. Enter, 0 Lord, the tomb. Raise us into the light and make the sacrifice. Break down for us the prison wall and enter into pain.The lord of Life returned. He liked it not, and hence the pain.(Esoteric Psychology II, p. 98) Source : http://www.lucistrust.org/en/arcane_school/talks_and_articles/descent_and_sacrifice

I don't know who is right, because the Christian Bible tells a completely different story. That force that created us, that force what we might call a soul that entered into matter and made us humans to become living organisms, living bodies with a soul, is to be respected, and that force I call God, and all that opposed that forced is thus ungodly. People who are involved in this quest are often seen as a little bit weird or insane, but ladies and gentlemen, all diplomats of the United Nations are into this, and all major presidents of the USA are freemasons and involved in this, but behind the scenes, as I did my job behind the scenes, based on goodwill to humanity, fighting for the protection of those unknowing, ignorant masses, who were not aware of dangers heading towards their daily lives. I was working towards peace, shared wisdom and knowledge, and after my Luciferian discipleship on a point now where I leave it more behind, respect the knowledge, but turn back to Michael and the study of the Abrahmic religions, as well as buddhism and hinduism. The knowledge that I gained, I hope to offer for those searching souls, often in spiritual emergencies, who need more Light on the Path. To make a long story short. This planet is ruled by Lucifer, Satan of the Christian Bible, this world is indeed a fallen place, and there are wars in the Heavens. I see Lucifer's part of trying to make humans mentally free, and Michael's of protecting humans against dangers, takng their fear away and guiding them towards God, the God of the Bible. On thing is a fact, during my 'Luciferian study and discipleship' I suffered badly, it was an offer, and everything I did I tried to for the benefit of humanity, becoming free myself, trying to free others as much as possible. Maybe I was deceived, I don't know, David Icke and Jordan Maxwell and Michael Tsarion, and a little bit Alex Jones, showed me another story in the alternative media, that I choose another path. If there comes a world government, then I refuse to make it a prison for mankind. Humans should deceide this for themselves, democratically : do they want to be united as a world body, one humanity, it sounds romantic, but not if it turnes into a nightmare!? Hitler wanted to use national-socialism and was the Messiah of the New Age, as we now see Obama, the other Messiah of the New World Order, who needs to solve all the problems but can't, because it's based on - maybe - the wrong basis, the wrong false light, the wrong archetypical principle. The same goes on for the United Nations. This age old battle goes back to our very religious, philosophical and historical roots where only the Brotherhood of the Snake, the Serpents, the guiding angels of our planet, the Great White Brotherhood, know the whole story.

The Luciferians see Lucifer as the good guy who gave us freedom, but it is in our collective unconscious that there is something tricky to the story. I hope to reach a more buddhist stage of development where I can - with all my heart - leave this dualistic battle in the Heavens behind me. For now, our entire humanity has to do with it. Albert Pike predicted a conspiracy to should lead us to another world war, and if see to the world it might be playing out silently. I want to be a protector of humans, preventing war, am not guided by personal gain, fame, money or whatever, I want to leave this place one day, hoping to have provided some books or website or music or poetry, in order to make the life for others a little bit better. As with all knowledge, it can be misused, but for my field of care, where I came into, is the mental health community, what I believe is created in order to block certain people from freedom, keeping them in line through brainwashing, mind control and drugs, forced and against the will of the individual, whilst the psychology of the future must be holistic and integral. After I succeeded in that mission, I can start writing poems again, not for the money or the fame, but in order to make my searching, struggle and finding benefitial to others.

"And our freedom's consuming itself, what we've become, is contrary to what we want, take a bow" - Muse in 'Take a bow'

This entire spiritual quest has to be fought on the inside, I hope until one on the right path to safe, right, and noble living. The Theosophical Society offered the wisdom of the ancien mysteries, and made some evolving to the angelic realms, others becoming seeers, others becoming more godly and so on and so for. The question is : what do you want? In if you get what you want, does it feeds the heart and soul? Can you handle the responsability? I know that I don't want to be a God, higher than that what created us. I believe that my humility will safe me, that I am here to unite, build bridges, and connect even opposites, but I know that I will never sell my soul to something that might destroy my future karma for aeons and aeons. Maybe I'm way too much brainwashed by the Christian Bible, but I don't want to reject it, I'll take some time to figure that out and will search for my personal contact with the Transpersonal Deity, That In Which We Live, as the Theosophers say, and that What created us, in its likeness. And if there are more informed, wiser, honest and bonafide teachers who can shine a light on the subject of our occult history, let hem bring that knowledge, whilst at the same time learning us to respect that what made us to what we are, guiding us to free humanity in a democratic world that realises his interconnectness, where nobody is left behind, where a new world emerges for the benefit of all, not a dystopia, as with the Hitler trip that ended with disasters as the Holocaust and Auschwitz, hoping to do at least one thing for those in the forgotten hellish realms of this world : mental institutions, for whose lives I at least want to make a different by doing a project for it, writing a book, bundling my essays from this website / weblog, and working together, if necessary with psychiatrists and psychologists for a while. It has been said that schizophrenia is indeed ancestral possesion that needs to be balanced by a ritual, or esoteric therapy, and I believe, as I see the tremendous work of Stanislav Grof and Ken Wilber, that medical doctors of the future, and more those working as psychiatrists,will have to experience and this themselves. Where the psychotic one drowns, the shaman and the mystic swims. These people need to learn to swim, and no pill does that for them. Keep in mind that many people in these institutions are the result of trauma, bad luck, or are the result from political, religious, economical, sociological and cultural events. If we can return those people back to the world, in freedom, outside these clinics, with self-knowledge (Know Thyself, remember) able to find their ways that benefits society, or at least that they can become creative, find a hobby, go back to school even earn some money with what they are good at, then a part of my mission is completed. Critically Montesquieu once said "By opening so freely their lunatic asylums to their supposed madmen, men only seek to assure each other that they are not themselves mad." (Montesquieu's "Lettres Persanes.")

I can't predict the future, I hope that the right spiritual forces will guide me towards my Home - and all of us, in order that I might help others towards the same, safe place of peace, integrity, light, love and compassion. In my humble opinions we need to be humans together as one family in the first place, not gods, not better than the force that created us. I don't see myself as the next guru, or prophet, or messiah (as some maybe would like to see me). I am just a human being on a path, that saw some great suffering in his life, and wants to protect those without a voice who are behind close doors. Protection by the law and ensuring human rights is also something that has to be done in the future. As far as it is now, it is torture, brainwashing and mind-control. Behaviorism in action in order to condition people back to the state as what is supposed to be normal, what is not the solution. In an honest society, all people would have basic income, the ultra-rich would give a little bit more away, so that the others could have that, and indeed, Mehal Rockefeller has a point, that alone is possible in a Golden Age, but ... I am a New Age critic so we'll see.

Lucis Trust adds :

Yet sin and evil do exist on Earth. We are told by the Tibetan that the only true evil is the sin of separatism. And in this sense we gain some understanding of how Lucifer became identified with evil, for the awakening mind which characterises the stage of advanced humanity today is, as we know all too well, our means both of liberation and of further separation and imprisonment. The mind, functioning and powerful but devoid of soul, can be the great crystallising factor which builds powerful barriers of separation. "The mind is the slayer of the Real. Slay thou the slayer", the disciple is commanded. In this sense the mind in its concrete and analytical element becomes the refuge (and the unrecognised prison) of the ideologue, and is indeed capable of the sin of separatism through prejudice and hate and the wiilingness to accept the distortions of half-truths.
Further clarification of the role of the solar angels is found in a consideration of the fourth Ray of Harmony through Conflict and the fifth Ray of Knowledge, and the planets Mercury and Venus, through which they respectively channel their energies. For Mercury is the "Messenger of the Gods" and the fourth ray is the fluid principle which links the Plan and Purpose of divinity, known on the level of buddhi or intuition, which is ruled by Mercury, with the mind or manas, ruled by Venus and the fifth ray. "Venus was the custodian of what we call the principle of Mind and brought it as a pure gift to embryonic humanity", we are told inThe Rays and the Initiations. Or as the Buddha said, "Love is the deliverance of mind". And the fifth ray, channelled by Venus and mental in expression, "operates in connection with the Law of Cleavages", and "is also responsible for the rapid formation of great conditioning ideologies" (Ibid., p. 602). In this we are reminded that the solar angels who chose to descend to Earth submitted to the Law of Duality so that the evolution of the human being could be dependent upon the development of mental discrimination and free will, and thus upon the capacity to make choices and to choose the higher way. There is always a choice of two paths, and it is a choice which must, for the human being, be guided by free will.
The substance of the mental plane is fifth ray, channelled through Venus, and because the angel kingdom works with substance—with the form aspect—so the solar angels brought the substance of mentality to man by establishing the link of the causal body of the soul on the mental plane—a link preserved until the fourth initiation which shatters the no longer needed form of the causal body. Some idea of the magnitude of this act of the solar angels is suggested in the realisation that the fifth Ray of Knowledge "is the energy which admits humanity (and particularly the trained disciple or initiate) into the mysteries of the Mind of God Himself. It is the 'Substantial' key to the Universal Mind" (Ibid., p. 591).Further, the link of the fifth Ray of Knowledge and the second Ray of Love-Wisdom is said to be exceedingly close, because the second ray rules this present solar system, and in the sacrifice of the "Light Bearing" solar angels on behalf of animal man, the second ray aspect of wisdom was awakened, for "wisdom is knowledge gained by experience [the journey of the Prodigal Son] and implemented by love". Thus the descent of the solar angels into substance brought the legacy of experience to the unfoldment of the divine Plan.
So, returning to the story of the Prodigal Son, to understand the deeper implications of the Prodigal Son’s experience, it is important to note that, upon his return to the Father’s home, the Father joyously rushed out to embrace him, leaving the elder son who had remained at home feeling jealous and unappreciated. That such a journey to "a far country" is part of God"s Plan seems to be verified by the following passage from the Tibetan:

This urge to sacrifice, to relinquish this for that, to choose one way or line of conduct and thus sacrifice another way, to lose in order eventually to gain—such is the underlying story of evolution. This needs psychological understanding. It is a governing principle of life itself, and runs like a golden pattern of beauty through the dark materials of which human history is constructed. When this urge to sacrifice in order to win, gain or salvage that which is deemed desirable is understood, then the whole clue to man’s unfoldment will stand revealed. This tendency or urge is something different to desire, as desire is academically understood and studied today. What it really connotes is the emergence of that which is most divine in man. It is an aspect of desire, but it is the dynamic, active side and not the feeling, sensuous side. It is the predominant characteristic of Deity. (Esoteric Psychology II, p. 97)

Through the energy of the fifth ray, which is "essentially a light-bearer", the evolution of humanity is hastened, bringing about the descent of the Kingdom of God to Earth as a result of the ascent of so many taking initiation in this age. The fact that The Secret Doctrine equates Venus with Gaia (Earth), and the awakening consciousness of the Gaia theory recognises that Earth is a living and unified organism, suggests that humanity may now be beginning to awaken and cooperate somewhat with the reason for which the angels descended into matter: for the salvaging of substance and the awakening of mind in form so that the Purpose of Deity could be registered and expressed in substance. The solar angels "fell" as an act of choice and of supreme sacrifice on behalf of humanity. Those "Lords of Knowledge and Compassion and of ceaseless persevering Devotion" are ourselves, and we in turn must consciously choose to take control of our incarnation in form, seeking Purpose and thereby rendering life on Earth a gift of sacrifice to the lesser lives dependent on our care.
Christ said, "I am the bright morning star". His promise, and the legacy of the presence on Earth of all such "light bearers", may best be summarised in the following words: H. P. Blavatsky wrote that "in all the ancient cosmogonies light comes from darkness". And Alice Bailey expressed a similar recognition in the following words: "The Master M. . . adds darkness unto light so that the stars appear, for in the light the stars shine not, but in the darkness light diffused is not, but only focussed points of radiance." (The Rays and the Initiations, p. 170) 

My advice, if you study occultism of luciferian texts, read between the lines and don't choose for something that might not bring you the wanted freedom - all these mental conceptual text confuse the Mind so in the end, that thinking with your Heart is the easiest way out - because inside we Know the Truth, but instead more imprisonment on the level of the soul. I keep it simple in my life, according to the wisdom of Lao Tse and am just looking for a solution for the most neglected of our society, the lowest value Meme of the spiral dynamics : beige (See the spiral dynamics model for more information on Value Memes). The integral yoga of Sri Aurobindo teaches us to descend into 'hell', and work not for our personal liberation and Heaven, but to help those who are most left behind in hellish realism, freeing their conditions and hoping that they can build a life in society worth living, with happiness and joy and many blessings. Concluded : I hope that the poorest of all one day can escape poverty through a European Basic Income for all, and that those souls who are left behind in the human rat race in the West, can offer themselves a kind of spiritual and existential understanding of themselves and the world, so that they - at least - are able to survive outside of the horror of mental hospitals, guided towards knowledge of themselves, and towards a happy fulfilling creative life in their futures. This is possible, when the wisdom of transpersonal and integral psychology is applied. So that we can evolve from this reality where people are being brainwashed through mainly behavioral psychology techniques towards conditioning. Yoga means de-conditioning and liberation, what is quite the opposite.

Psychiatrist Colin Ross—The CIA Doctors & Military Mind Control

G. Edward Griffin—Psychiatry as a Political Weapon: Punitive Psychiatry

Towards this :

In Belgium, there are horrors going on as well, but it is way worse in other counties. I am blessed to live in a good country and am willing to help wherever and whenever I can for the benefit of the human race, starting with those who needed it the most and where we are even not allowed to talk about because it's taboo. Somebody has got to do the dirty work, and I am willing to do so, by writing on it in the first place.

The above writings does not mean that the pagan religions must be forbidden, no believe-system must be forbidden or forced upon mankind in the first place. Free will is a divine law that must be respected. The light of Lucifer has been called the false light by Manly P. Hall in his Secret Teachings of All Ages, where he writes as well :

Some secret orders have taught that the sun was inhabited by a race of creatures with bodies composed of a radiant, spiritual ether not unlike in its constituency the actual glowing ball of the sun itself. The solar heat had no harmful effect upon them, because their organisms were sufficiently refined and sensitized to harmonize with the sun's tremendous vibratory rate. These creatures resemble miniature suns, being a little larger than a dinner plate in size, although some of the more powerful are considerably larger. Their color is the golden white light of the sun, and from them emanate four streamers of Vril. These streamers are often of great length and are in constant motion. A peculiar palpitation is to be noted throughout the structure of the globe and is communicated in the form of ripples to the emanating streamers. The greatest and most luminous of these spheres is the Archangel Michael; and the entire order of solar life, which resemble him and dwell upon the sun, are called by modern Christians "the archangels" or "the spirits of the light. - Manly P. Hall

I am going to study more of the Jewish, Hindu, Christian, Buddhist and Muslim religions in my life, in the meanwhile I keep on meditating and writing on a solution for those who are the most in need, the changes in philosophy, science and psychology are already happening in the United States, now we hope to do something in Belgium as well, with respect for human rights (where I hope for a change in the legal system in order to protect the most rejected and vulnerable of all, who often these days have no rights at all) and in ethical ways with respect for the individual and society as a whole.

I have forgiven everyone and anything that hurt me before and tortured me, I let go what went wrong, in my personal life and in that of the many others during my days of forced imprisonment during my spiritual emergencies. Good things are happening as well, now is the time to build bridges, to reunite, don't blame politics, but trying to find solutions and being an example - for a peaceful world - as much as possible.

Helena Blavatsky once said in her book "The Voice of the Silence", a book I like the most by her - that we live in Myalba. Myalba is our earth — pertinently called "Hell," and the greatest of all Hells, by the esoteric school. The esoteric doctrine knows of no hell or place of punishment other than on a man-bearing planet or earth. Okay, if we know that than we must take action to turn this Hell into a Paradise, what I believe is possible if we all coöperate and unite opposites. 

The energy at the peace conference in Antwerp, Belgium, made possible today by the Christian Sant'Egidio Community in the spirit of Assisi, entitled "Peace is the future" it was a remarkable moment. Everyone could feel the energy of peace and working together overthere. King Filip and Queen Mathilde of Belgium were there and during the conference religious leaders of all kinds and from everywhere in the world talked about world problems and worked for peace. I am proud to live in the city that made this possible in the beautiful country of Belgium. Guided by this example and by this beautiful experience in the end, I want to contribute to the future, working in a constructive way towards solution, trying to create a better world for the future - respecting different paths in life. As a wise man once said : "Because people are not on your Path, that doesn't mean that they are lost". As we respect other religions, even if they are pagan, or shamanic, or not respected in the West for instance (like Hinduism, not so common here in Belgium), let's threat them with the same respect and understanding, and compassion and let this be the approach for the future, non-violent compassionate understanding towards one-another, once and for all!

During my greatest spiritual crisis I had vision of Christ Jesus in Rome, during the crucifixion, it was horrifying and gave me tremendous fear as my consciousness was plunged into that event. What happened there must be a enormous thing. It shocked me. Actually I never talked about this experience publically but it gives a total new view and what other thaught as just schizophrenic hallucinations. 

These kinds of visions are often reported by mystics, but they are related to the culture, Muslims will have visions of Mohammed, Hindus will see Krishna (Sri Aurobindo and Krishnamurti for instance, saw Krishna), Christians will see Jesus. So that paved the way for the spiritual searching and battle in my later years and my commitment to write on this, trying to get the spiritual aspect of life into the field of psychology and psychiatry, a taboo to talk about and work on, but it will lead towards a better solution for everyone involved. In my next writing I will investigate what transpersonal psychology can mean for the mainstream mental health scene. The knowledge provided is not to be used to supress people more, but to make it understandable and should lead towards more compassion and healing in the therapeutic process, beyond the medical model. Big pharma should must act ethical, and pharmaceuticals should never be used with force, the same goes up for the isolation cells and that kind of torture. I feel like living a long an happy life, and my work lies in the creative field as the more yoga and meditation I do, the more experiences I might go through, and I must first integrate what happened to me before. Future therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists should experience altered states themselves. Before the people around Stan Grof used LSD-25 to experiment with, but do to legal changes, this is not longer allowed by law. Stanislav Grof developed Holotropic Breathwork to create altered states that lead towards wholeness - hence Holo-Tropic.

A vision I had in my early twenties during a spiritual emergency.

On so I came upon today, still hypersensitive nervous system with moments of enormous creative output, and other moment of huge amounts of sleep, might sound bipolar, for me it is all according to the kundalini energy's activity. I never found a guru or a guide that could help me long, besides the friend I had in theosophy, but in these mystical adventures in the West, most of us are on their own. I hop through the sharing of these experiences and thoughts, that others might at least recognise things and won't feel alone on the journey. The scientist and the spiritualist of the future should be partners, not enemies, because that approach lead us to nothing but troubles and fights. I had to do it all by my own, what resulted it a far from perfect-integrated personality within society (there is no socio-economic basis for people like me than madhouses when another emergency accurs, and that could change - there is really something mystical involved).

In the end I have nothing against the mysteries, I only feel more confortable with my favorite archangel Michael, whereas other take the Luciferian path. Maybe the buddhists are the most wise, walking the Middle Way. Let's not judge eachother. In the end, for those who are scollars of some contemporary conspiracy theorists, and know about the Illuminati bloodlines, I am probably indirectly related to one of those bloodlines of "Those who from Heaven to Earth came". They appear to be Satanic in nature, according to Christian scollars, but that is not always right. The Bhagavad Gita learns us that some yogi's who did not complete their mission towards liberation and Nirvana, might be reborn in wealthy and or royal families, thus even within those bloodlines, people are born in order to be able to only focus on their spiritual evolution, without having to fight for survival. I believe that the very nature of what the West sees as schizophrenia is also karmic in nature. Shamanic-jungian analysis of schizophrenia shows us possession by the spirit of an ancestor, keep people sick unless they start to evolve spiritually. As soon as they are spiritually on schedule, they are 'temporarily' as normal and healthy as everyone else. Of course, science cannot proof this hypothesis yet but there is a link. I believe that nature through mental illness forces people on a certain path, completely different from the paths most people walk. These paths are very difficult to walk, many can't stand it and commit suicide, the very few who make it can return to society and make a huge contribution with the experience that is gained upon the path. They might become amateur psychologists, artists, scientists, inventors, poets, writers, painters, mystics, and if this goal might be possible in the future for more people, I believe that these wounded healers can coöperate more and more with professionals in the field, sharing knowledge, experience and insights, as comrades, not enemies. And so the field of psychology can make a huge step for forward, as the healed schizophrenics might appear to have become spiritual geniuses, due to the awakened force of the kundalini energy, so often active in so-called schizophrenics.

Jungian - Shamanic insights from the Grail Kings of the web

I had my Luciferian process of discipleship and initiation, the so-planned future for mankind through the United Nations in the Aquarian Age, in order to lead mankind towards wisdom and knowledge of the Self. But what is wisdom without compassion and love? The New World Order is the rescue modus for the world, based on a Luciferian principle. I know that because I ended up in the NWO system myself, naive as I was through theosophical study. I guess a great change in thinking is necessary based on love, beyond greed and selfishness, and wanting more and more and more, that revolution of consciousness has to start within the richest of the richest, so that all the wealth of the world might be shared with the whole of humanity and its citizens, in order to eliminate poverty and slavery worldwide, and create a true golden age within Kali Yuga, the current Dark Cycle. Our archangels' patience is growing short, but we wait and wait and wait. Peace and happiness for mankind is only possible when the greed of the upper-upper-class, with whom I became befriended partly, will start to share its money internationally with the whole of mankind, ending modern slavery in a one week, ending debt slavery in a second, providing a basic income for all everywhere in the work, realising the Four Freedoms of President Roosevelt, investing in research for finding solutions to all the problems we face, ecologically, politically, economically, diplomatically and so on.  Saving the middle class from extinction, and saving the poor from starvation. If the Rothschilds and Rockefellers of the world want to end the wars, and end poverty, they can, but as Mehal Rockefeller once mentioned, there is free will, nobody can be pushed, and envying is not the solution. But we want a little golden age, isn't it? Well, don't buy Buckingham Palace, but buy a Rolls Royce is you wish, but share some 10% of all the wealth, I ask the wealthiest of the wealthiest, to save planet earth, end the debt slavery, and providing basic income for all as the best cure against wars, populist revolutions and uprisings and disasters of all kind. The future is not in the sky like in Star Trek, the future, is in the Heart - with Love your friend, Kristof - [P.S. we got a starving human race at the moment - emergency status]

Recommended books for further research (all available at www.amazon.com) :

Kundalini: The Evolutionary Energy in Man Paperback – 

by Krishna Gopi (Author)

Coiled like a snake at the base of the spine, kundalini is the spiritual force that lies dormant in every human being. Once awakened, often through meditation and yoga practices, it rises up the spine and finds expression in the form of spiritual knowledge, mystical vision, psychic powers, and ultimately, enlightenment. 

This is the classic first-person account of Gopi Krishna, an ordinary Indian householder who, at the age of thirty-four, after years of unsupervised meditation, suddenly experienced the awakening of kundalini during his morning practice. The story of this transformative experience, and the author's struggle to find balance amid a variety of powerful physiological and psychic side effects, forms the core of the book. His detailed descriptions of his dramatic inner experiences and symptoms such as mood swings, eating disorders, and agonizing sensations of heat—and of how, with the help of his wife, he finally stabilized at a higher level of consciousness—make this one of the most valuable classics of spiritual awakening available.

Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness Paperback – 

by Satprem  (Author)

Many of the westerners who have settled in Auroville came after reading the book "Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness", an excellent introduction to the pioneering work of Sri Aurobindo and The Mother. The book was written by (French) Satprem in the late nineteen-sixties at the request of the Mother. Its name is derived from a line in Sri Aurobindo's epic poem 'Savitri', referring to "the adventure of consciousness and joy".

In the intro it says:

In this century, so hurried, incoherent, full of riches which dominate us more than they serve, we have need of a true mastery, of that joy which comes of this mastery. But our psychology knows yet only the surfaces of being, and our imported orientalisms illumine some obscure depths which may perhaps be all right for the cross-legged sage, but not for the beleaguered men we are.

This book has been written from a Western point of view and for those who yearn for a truth of Life and not only a truth with eyes closed. It presents just one aspect of Sri Aurobindo, the most practical one. We only hope it will lead the reader to explore for himself Sri Aurobindo, and perhaps, with him, find the perfect harmony of East and West, of inner freedom and outer mastery.

And further on:

... Now, Sri Aurobindo shows us how to make a double discovery of which we are in urgent need if we want not only to give outlet to our stifling chaos but to transform our world. For, following step by step with him his prodigious exploration - his technique of inner spaces, if one may venture to put it thus - we are led to the greatest discovery of all times, to the door of the Great Secret which must change the face of the world, namely, that consciousness is power.

The book has been widely translated.

The Stormy Search for the Self: A Guide to Personal Growth through Transformational Crisis Paperback – 

by Christina Grof  (Author), Stanislav Grof  (Author)

Many people are undergoing a profound personal transformation associated with spiritual opening. Under favorable circumstances, this process results in emotional healing, a radical shift in values, and a profound awareness of the mystical dimension of existence. For some, these changes are gradual and relatively smooth, but for others they can be so rapid and dramatic that they interfere with effective everyday functioning, creating tremendous inner turmoil. Unfortunately, many traditional health-care professionals do not recognize the positive potential of these crises; they often see them as manifestations of mental disease and repsond with stigmatizing labels, suppressive drugs, and even institutionalization.

In The Stormy Search for the Self, Christina and Stanislav Grof, the world's foremost authorities on the subject of spiritual emergence, draw on years of dramatic personal and professional experience with transformative states to explore these "spiritual emergencies," altered states so powerful they threaten to overwhelm the individual's oridinary reality. This book will provide insights, assurances, and practical suggestions for those who are experiencing or have experienced such a crisis, for their families and friends, and for mental-health professionals. It is also a valuable guide for anyone involved in personal transformation whose experiences, though generally untraumatic, may still at times be bewildering or disorienting.

Integral Psychology: Consciousness, Spirit, Psychology, Therapy - Ken Wilber

The goal of an "integral psychology" is to honor and embrace every legitimate aspect of human consciousness under one roof. This book presents one of the first truly integrative models of consciousness, psychology, and therapy. Drawing on hundreds of sources—Eastern and Western, ancient and modern—Wilber creates a psychological model that includes waves of development, streams of development, states of consciousness, and the self, and follows the course of each from subconscious to self-conscious to superconscious. Included in the book are charts correlating over a hundred psychological and spiritual schools from around the world, including Kabbalah, Vedanta, Plotinus, Teresa of Ávila, Aurobindo, Theosophy, and modern theorists such as Jean Piaget, Erik Erikson, Jane Loevinger, Lawrence Kohlberg, Carol Gilligan, Erich Neumann, and Jean Gebser. Integral Psychology is Wilber's most ambitious psychological system to date and is already being called a landmark study in human development.

The Marriage of Sense and Soul: Integrating Science and Religion Paperback by Ken Wilber

There is arguably no more critical and pressing topic than the relation of science and religion in the modern world. Science has given us the methods for discovering truth, while religion remains the single greatest force for generating meaning. Yet the two are seen as mutually exclusive, with wrenching consequences for humanity. In The Marriage of Sense and Soul, one of today's most important philosophers brilliantly articulates how we might begin to think about science and religion in ways that allow for their reconciliation and union, on terms that will be acceptable to both camps.
        Ken Wilber is widely acclaimed as the foremost thinker in integrating Western psychology and the Eastern spiritual traditions. His many books have reached across disciplines and synthesized the teachings of religion, psychology, physics, mysticism, sociology, and anthropology, earning him a devoted international following. The Marriage of Sense and Soul is his most accessible work yet, aimed at guiding a general audience to the mutual accord between the spiritual, subjective world of ancient wisdom and the objective, empirical world of modern knowledge. 
        Wilber clearly and succinctly explores the schism between science and religion, and the impact of this "philosophical Cold War" on the fate of humanity. He systematically reviews previous attempts at integration, explaining why romantic, idealistic, and postmodern theories failed. And he demonstrates how science is compatible with certain deep features common to all of the world's major religious traditions. In pointing the way to a union between truth and meaning, Ken Wilber has created an elegant and accessible book that is breathtaking in its scope.

Spiritual Emergency: When Personal Transformation Becomes a Crisis (New Consciousness Readers) Paperback by Stanislav Grof  (Editor), Christina Grof (Editor)

From Spiritual Emergency to Healing and Rebirth

Increasing numbers of people involved in personal transformation are experiencing spiritual emergencies — crises when the process of growth and change becomes chaotic and overwhelming. Individuals experiencing such episodes may feel that their sense of identity is breaking down, that their old values no longer hold true, and that the very ground beneath their personal realities is radically shifting. In many cases, new realms of mystical and spiritual experience enter their lives suddenly and dramatically, resulting in fear and confusion. They may feel tremendous anxiety, have difficulty coping with their daily lives, jobs, and relationships, and may even fear for their own sanity.

Unfortunately, much of modern psychiatry has failed to distinguish these episodes from mental illness. As a result, transformational crises are often suppressed by routine psychiatric care, medication, and even institutionalization.

However, there is a new perspective developing among many mental health professionals and those studying spiritual development that views such crises as transformative breakthroughs that can hold tremendous potential for physical and emotional healing. When understood and treated in a supportive manner, spiritual emergencies can become gateways to higher levels of functioning and new ways of being.

In this book, foremost psychologists, psychiatrists, and spiritual teachers address the following questions: What is spiritual emergency? What is the relationship between spirituality, “madness,” and healing? What forms does spiritual emergency take? What are the pitfalls — and promises — of spiritual practice? How can people in spiritual emergency be assisted by family, friends, and professionals?

This groundbreaking work reveals that within the crisis of spiritual emergency lies the promise of spiritual emergence and renewal.

Mysticism Paperback – N

by Evelyn Underhill  (Author)

Interior Castle (Dover Thrift Editions) 

by St. Teresa of Avila (Author), E. Allison Peers (Translator)

While I was beseeching Our Lord today...I began to think of the soul as if it were a castle made of a single diamond or of very clear crystal, in which there are many rooms, just as in Heaven there are many mansions. — St. Teresa of Avila
A masterpiece of spiritual literature, this sixteenth-century work was inspired by a mystical vision that came upon the revered St. Teresa of Avila, one of the most gifted and beloved religious figures in history. St. Teresa's vision was of a luminous crystal castle composed of seven chambers, or "mansions," each representing a different stage in the development of the soul.
In her most important and widely read book, St. Teresa describes how, upon entering the castle through prayer and meditation, the human spirit experiences humility, detachment, suffering, and, ultimately, self-knowledge, as it roams from room to room. As the soul progresses further toward the center of the castle, it comes closer to achieving ineffable and perfect peace, and, finally, a divine communion with God. 
A set of rare and beautiful teachings for people of all faiths desirous of divine guidance, this meticulous modern translation by E. Allison Peers breathes contemporary life into a religious classic.